02 July 2009

What a way to make a livin'

I'm sitting at work without much to do and not doing much. I've got things I should be doing, I'm just not. Know what that's like? It's as though I don't feel compelled to complete the tasks set before me. I've thought about this a lot. I've seriously got a half-dozen things I could be doing right now. Part of me feels like doing them is really pointless, though. As if the tasks are unimportant. How do you get over that feeling? When I say unimportant I mean that I'm fairly confident that at least half of the shit on my to-do list could go undone ad infinitum and no one would notice. Maybe even more than half. I don't really like that feeling, you know? I like my job and I'm certainly glad to have one but there are plenty of times, such as now, when I feel like I'm just doing busy-work. I think it's the only work there is to be done right now, though. In 5 years will someone be looking at the work I've done and say, "I'm glad someone took the time to do that. It's really saved our asses"?

Believe you me, I enjoy getting a paycheck for browsing the damn internet. It's a sweet gig. But I shouldn't be browsing the internet. I should be working on this other shit. I just honestly feel like I'm making just as much of a difference either way. These past two weeks have been keeping me busy. And by that I mean that I've been kept away from the computer. Hence the lack of blogging. But now that I'm back in front of the computer at my desk with no fires to put out here I am blogging again. Go figure. I guess I don't really know why I'm writing all of this shit. Just something to do, I suppose.

4 comments:

RMJ said...

Hey, thanks for the heads-up! Boy, is my face red.

Ari said...

I completely agree. . . I do nothing at my job and while it sounds like a sweet deal - it's really not. It's kinda depressing actually. . .

Sarah said...

Your answer is in your post. You were on fire for two weeks. Can't always be like that or you'd keel over. So enjoy your bit of downtime and get one of those perpetually undone things done every day. Knowledge-work is always full of tedium. Good thing we have the internets!

Heather Rose said...

I think we all get that way sometimes. :( I hate it.

I help people for a living, and when nothing's going on...it's a nice break, but I get depressed. Like I'm doing no good.

I think you just have to keep your own fire going. Whether anyone notices or not, doing your best is a good thing.